Putting a Pause on Parenthood

Scott and I came to a new conclusion about being parents recently, and it was not easy. The day we went to the fertility doctor I was supposed to start my period, so everything was on track, we were very happy and excited. However, something did not go as planned, my cycle never began. To be honest, it was 17 days late. So we decided we would wait a month when things were back on track...18 days late....and 17 days late again. Clearly it was not our time. Later into the summer we found out an interesting fact, my medicine wasn't truly helping me. I am still getting cysts, and they have not subsided. If I do become pregnant, by a miracle, my miscarriage rate with be 70%, and I will be considered a high risk pregnancy for one child. I will have high Preeclampsia risks, among other issues.

This has been really hard on me...

We have decided that I will not bother with birth control, on the off chance we do get pregnant eventually, and I will still work towards doing everything the doctor has asked of me, but we are not going to stress getting pregnant.

Scott and I have decided that our main goal is going to be adoption. We want to have four children, but with adoption we may only be able to have two. Either way, we will have children someday.

We are to be sealed together in May, and will begin saving any extra pennies that we can. We are hoping to start papers around our 3rd anniversary when we are more stable, have money saved, and are more established. We have decided we will apply to Heart to Heart adoption agency. It will be a lot of work, and will cost quite a bit of money, but we are more than willing.

We will be parents...eventually